Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday


   Hard to believe it's Wednesday already, it seems like I just got through the last question asked by Jamie Ridler. If I am to be honest I must tell you that between Wishcasting Wednesdays and The Joy Diet I am finding myself full of raw emotion...this job of soul searching and excavating is leaving me feeling wounded and spent.
   I'm not entirely sure that this emotional roller coaster ride is what Jamie had in mind when posing her questions. Perhaps this is just happening to me because I am finding myself at a difficult place right now. If you have read any of my previous posts you are aware that my sister was recently diagnosed with lung cancer. More recent tests are showing it has spread to both lungs and lymph nodes placing her in stage 4. She will soon begin chemotherapy and I am trying to be a source of strength for her. While trying to remain upbeat I am acutely aware of the realities she is facing and I am finding this mentally and emotionally draining.
   I believe that whenever we are faced with our own mortality or that of a loved one we question what we once thought as truth. We begin to prioritize and realize what is truly important. I so wish I could go back to ignorant bliss, before I started digging for my truth. This inner journey I'm afraid is going to be  a painful one.
   When tragedy strikes, our 'serenity' as we knew it is gone, our courage wanes and we lose the wisdom to see us through the dark hours ahead. So today I wish to let go of my insecurities and to find peace once again. I wish to let go of fear and for God to grant our family and especially my sister the courage to fight this fight. Finally I wish to let go of the pain that the unknown can bring and pray for the wisdom we will need to see us through this dark corridor so that we may find the doorway to light!
  

30 comments:

  1. What difficult news to deal with, and to face it with such a wonderful outlook as yours to see it as an opportunity to search for your truth!

    As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wholeheartedly wish for her also!

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  2. I too have been in the "hallway of darkness" banging on the door of "ignorant bliss" to no avail. So I can empathize with you. Please know that I am sending you healing hugs and loving rays of light.

    As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wholeheartedly wish for her also!

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  3. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

    So much to say and words seem so small - feeling my heart tugged and stretching to wrap some love around you and your sister and family and sending also prayers for your strength, wisdom and endurance for the battle ahead.

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  4. Your wish for you and your sis is powerful and profound.

    Do you know what I'm wishing right now? I'm wishing with all my might that you can feel this hug I am sending. I wish I could give it to you in person. That's my wish.

    As our Diva so wishes, with Love & Intention I wish for her also.

    "Proceed with a joyful heart and know that all will be well."

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  5. Sending prayers and special blessings your way!

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  6. A very brave and honest posting!
    You are right, about "the joy diet", I am often thinking: huha, this is digging deep, very deep. And I am so glad, I can share this with so many wise, wonderful, supportive women!

    I wish you and your sister all the strength and healing you are needing now!
    May angels surround you and your family!

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  7. I am so sorry about your sister.
    You will both be in my prayers.

    As you wish for yourself, your sister and the rest of your family, so I too wish for you with all my heart!

    Sending you love, peace, strength, courage and hope,

    Jennifer

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  8. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.
    Oh hon..I am so very sorry you are all going through this..you will all be in my thoughts and prayers. That you may find some serinity in this hard time hon!! Namaste, Sarah

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  9. As Diva wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. Sending you some supportive thoughts and healing vibes.

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  10. As Diva wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. I am always amazed and encouraged by your honesty in sharing your truth here. I am sending you and your sister lots of love and healing wishes. May you find some peace during this time. Namaste.

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  11. My thoughts and good wishes are with you and your family. Don't forget to look after yourself too.
    Wishing you strength and courage. Take care. x

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  12. As you wish for yourself, I wish also.

    With Love & Light
    Mica aka LadySilverOak

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  13. i'm praying for you and your family, diva.....and my arms are around you.
    xox

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  14. As Diva wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

    Oh, beautiful you. No wonder you are tender and raw and wounded. What a place to be in. How full your poor heart must be. My heart is sitting with you quietly, wrapping her arm around you, getting up only to make another pot of tea.

    Take care of wonderful you. I know sometimes when our loved ones are suffering it is so hard to remember ourselves and our own needs. Be gentle and know you are loved.

    ((bighugs))

    Jamie

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  15. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself & her family, so I wish for them too.
    Pray for you for the strength and wisdom.

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  16. As Diva wishes for herself and her family, so I wish for them also.

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  17. As you wish for yourself, so do I wish also.

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  18. The Serenity prayer is always a comfort in trying times, isn't it? Wishing you clearer skies ahead. As you wish for yourself, so do I wish for you also.

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  19. What an incredible brave, open, and honest post. You're in my thoughts. Stand strong.

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  20. I am keeping your sister in my prayers. Life is tough. I am so grateful for my faith which helps to buoy me up when I think I feel like I am sinking. ((((hugs)))) I am lifting you up in prayer as well.

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  21. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

    Much love and many prayers also for your sister.xx

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  22. Diva,
    Listen. to. me. Let go and let God. When you truly relinquish control, your faith will lift you. I promise.

    When someone is catastrophically injured or ill, loved ones and caregivers have the ultimate challenge because they want to be able to do something - anything - to ease the pain and provide comfort. Pray and He will use you, helping you to do this.

    In between, fill the rest of your life with that which is upbeat. Postpone soul searching exercises. Now is not the time! Read the bible or Rick Warren or Max Lucado. Read for happiness and pleasure. Listen to Christian music or other upbeat tunes. Walk outdoors every day, rain or shine. When your mind begins to wander towards negative things, say,"PRESENT" aloud and yank yourself back to the current moment. Spend time with your support people, to whom you can poor out your heart when it's overflowing. Baby steps.

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  23. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wish for her also

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  24. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

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  25. The serenity prayer one of the most beautiful in the world.

    Love Renee xoxo

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  26. As Diva wishes for herself, so I wish for her also

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  27. May you and your sister and your family have strength to face this illness. As Diva Kreszl wishes for herself, so I wholeheartedly wish for her also!

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  28. anything to do with excavating the soul can do this..and then your sisters diagnosis has sent you reeling.

    i will keep you tucked into my daily prayers as I walk my garden....

    Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach is a gentle way to do some soul excavating..

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