Finding My Way Back

after a very long hiatus from blogging

is proving to be much harder than I thought.

I have been struggling to find some balance in my life

and as the primary caregiver for my sister it has been

somewhat of a struggle.

Some of you may remember that she was diagnosed

with lung cancer last August, it's been a tough year.

I am by no means complaining, I am fortunate to be

able to help her through all of this. I simply found myself

overwhelmed by the demands on my time and so

 stepped away from posting on my blog.

                                                    While I am in charge of her care I am also

                                             the person who has to keep all the other family members

                                             caught up on her condition etc. To say I craved solitude

                                             would be a huge understatement. By the end of my days

                                             I have little to share and simply tire in the retelling of it all.

                                                   I want to assure you that even though

                                          I very much wanted to be alone most evenings, I

                                          never felt lonely. I very much enjoyed reading all of

                                          your blog entries and felt like you were all close by.

                                         A few of you emailed or checked in, you know who you are, 

                                        and made me feel like I was missed. For that I thank you.

                                      A few followers dropped me from their rolls, but that's okay.

                                                         I have been gone a long time.

                                         Some days were especially difficult, and I'm sure there

                                         are more tough times to come. At times it feels like sitting

                                         at the edge of the world with nothing to keep you from

                                        falling into a great abyss. Thankfully God has been walking

                                       beside me and though I often feel like the ground beneath

                                       my feet is slipping away I know that He is holding me tight.

                                                 So if you'll bear with what may be sporadic

                                                 posting I think I just may be ready to come

                                                                      out of hiding.

p.s.  You may or may not have noticed the change in the title of my blog (everything else is the same).

        It seemed appropriate since I seem to be spending so much of my time there.