after a very long hiatus from blogging
is proving to be much harder than I thought.
I have been struggling to find some balance in my life
and as the primary caregiver for my sister it has been
somewhat of a struggle.
Some of you may remember that she was diagnosed
with lung cancer last August, it's been a tough year.
I am by no means complaining, I am fortunate to be
able to help her through all of this. I simply found myself
overwhelmed by the demands on my time and so
stepped away from posting on my blog.
While I am in charge of her care I am also
the person who has to keep all the other family members
caught up on her condition etc. To say I craved solitude
would be a huge understatement. By the end of my days
I have little to share and simply tire in the retelling of it all.
I want to assure you that even though
I very much wanted to be alone most evenings, I
never felt lonely. I very much enjoyed reading all of
your blog entries and felt like you were all close by.
A few of you emailed or checked in, you know who you are,
and made me feel like I was missed. For that I thank you.
A few followers dropped me from their rolls, but that's okay.
I have been gone a long time.
Some days were especially difficult, and I'm sure there
are more tough times to come. At times it feels like sitting
at the edge of the world with nothing to keep you from
falling into a great abyss. Thankfully God has been walking
beside me and though I often feel like the ground beneath
my feet is slipping away I know that He is holding me tight.
So if you'll bear with what may be sporadic
posting I think I just may be ready to come
out of hiding.
p.s. You may or may not have noticed the change in the title of my blog (everything else is the same).
It seemed appropriate since I seem to be spending so much of my time there.