Thursday, December 31, 2009

Saying Goodbye to 2009


   If truth were to be told I am not a fan of New Year's Eve, never have been. I'm not sure when this began, I honestly can't remember ever really getting excited about the whole thing. Even as a child my Mom would try to be all festive with bite size snacks and fizzy drinks for us (myself and my two nephews) and put on Dick Clark so we could watch the 'Ball' drop. My sister and brother were much older than I and out doing their own celebrating while my nephews were closer to my age and Mom was the babysitter while everyone else went out. Somehow even at that young age I sensed the whole thing was not for me.

                                                    
   The week between Christmas and the New Year have always been rather melancholy for me. All the festivities and joyful times of Christmas are packed away for another year and we look forward to a blank page. I think that perhaps as an artist I feel intimidated by that blank white canvas. Where do I begin, what do I want the final piece to look like, what will other's think of my work? A lot of time is spent soul searching this week, did I do all I wanted to? Did anything amount to something? Did I touch anyone's life and make a difference? It's always difficult to look back and see how much time I wasted, what I didn't accomplish. Here I am on the threshold of a new year, will I do any better? Will the old ways and fear of failure prevent me from trying?


  
    I've attended my fair share of New Year's Eve parties over the last 53 years , sometimes because it's what I thought I should be doing, sometimes it was because I was cajoled into going and it was easier than resisting. This year I have decided you will find me in the comfort of my home, in my warmest jammies, snuggled up with some old classic movies and saying goodnight to 2009 when I'm tired.



   So while most of the world is up drinking, dancing and blowing into noisemakers I'll be catching a few zzzz's. After all I have a new canvas facing me tomorrow and as any artist knows the best way to get over the stark white staring at me is to jump in and splash a little color on it!
   Wishing you all a joyous New Year, one filled with an abundance of love, good health, happy moments and dreams fulfilled.
                                                    

20 comments:

  1. My husband says that what you do on New Years Day is what the rest of your year will be filled with-so I say DO ART!!!! It sounds like a wonderful way to spend the day and the year. Best wishes to you. From another who will be in bed before midnight!!!

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  2. I always try every year to make it to midnight. HA! The sad part is I don't remember if I made it last year or not.
    Happy New Year

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  3. Diva,
    Cool analogy with the blank canvas. I too have never been a big NYEVE-er. It always seemed like there was too much of an expectation about it. Bound to be a let down. I posted about Dick Clark too. I remember vividly watching the ball drop with my sister in the early 80's. Here's to watching it again tonight! Lisa

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  4. Ahh yes, splash a little color on this new year! Hope yours is filled with blessings...happy 2010~

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  5. Hi Diva! Happy New Year! I know you will have lots of new fabulous art pieces, and friends, and fun in 2010. I have almost made it to midnight (which is a miracle). xo Pam

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  6. Happy New Year. I'm with you about how to celebrate on New Year's eve. My husband and I went out for an early dinner and we are now watching a "Thin Man" movie from 1939. I put my jammies on hours ago...perfect New Year's Eve.
    Jane

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  7. Happy New Year! I wish you all the best in the coming year and look forward to sharing lots of blogging love with you!
    Take care, Laura

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  8. Breen and I laid on the couch and he had to wake me up at midnight. In the past, I beat myself up over the things I didn't accomplish over the year. But in 2009, major changes took place: I got married and I lost my job. I started to think that maybe I wasted a lot of time over the past 6 months but I really think I've started to listen to God more and that this past year was laid out for me as a preparation for all the wonderful things to come. I'm looking forward to more blogging with you in 2010! Happy New Year, beautiful Diva!

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  9. So well said! Happy New Year, Diva. :)

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  10. I see that we are twins separated at birth.

    Happy New Year dear friend and thank you so much for sharing about your niece, how wonderful.

    Love Renee xoxo

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  11. Happy New Year Diva!
    Here's to a year full of CREATION!!:)
    xo
    Chrissie

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  12. here's to blank canvases, much happiness, abundant blessings, and creative goodness for the new year!! wishing you a very happy 2010!! hugs, :))

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  13. This was lovely, Diva! Your analogy of the blank canvas was perfect for us all, but especially an artist.

    You absolutely touched lives and made differences in 2009. You could have asked for a show of hands and then you would have seen it clearly.

    And don't forget, we're not intended to be doing, doing, doing, all the time. Resting is not wasted time. Even God rested.

    Happy New Year!

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  14. Happy New Year to you and yours, dear Diva! I do hope that 2010 brings you nothing but the best:-) I've finally got all my Christmas decorations put away so now I have time for the computer again. I really missed blogging and visiting during the holidays but now I'm back!!!

    Like you, I've been to many New Year's celebrations but the last few years, I've enjoyed just staying home and relaxing. xoxo

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  15. Nothing like starting over with a blank canvas. I hope this year is a wonderful one for you!
    ~Michelle

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  16. I feel very much the same way at New YEars Eve and New Years Day is my birthday which always seems to get lost in the shuffle on NYE. I also feel that sadness this time of year. And of course to top it all off this year as with each year I get a bad head/chest cold around this time.
    Wishing you a New Year with all that you wish for.

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  17. A new year has begun and I am already for a nap. How about you?

    xoxo

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  18. I feel a lot like this too. My home is not very exciting on New Year's Eve. Most of the time I am glad to have a new year start but many times you still have the same things to face no matter what the calendar says.
    Hope you have lots of color to splash on the blank canvas!!!
    Amy

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  19. I so agree. We spend lots of time doing what we think will make us happy because it is what other people do. New Years is a tough time for a lot of people. This year I'm struggling more with it than most any other time I can remember.

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  20. Loving the thought of a blank canvas, gives one the thought that anything can be done! :D

    hugs,
    c
    yapping cat

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